brightredbirdie:

k so tony stark who spends literally days in his labs, who needs friendly or not-so-friendly reminders to eat and who will not sleep regardless of how friendly the reminders are; tony stark who builds what, about 86,000 suits in god knows how short a time span; tony stark who hates and bullies and sometimes considers just killing himself; tony stark with sleep paralysis, tony stark who builds sentries because if he has to literally feel like there is someone else in the room at night and he can’t get up to do anything about it, at least he’s going to goddamn know that there’s someone/thing that can; tony stark who tries to get through the business of running a company, honestly, really, but some days he just Can’t, capital C, and other days it’s just too hard to sit still that long; tony stark who gives the company to pepper on an impulse because what the hey let’s do everything on impulse; tony stark who does everything on impulse, tony stark who overthinks and overanalyses everything before getting a goddamned thing done. tony stark in college who his new friend rhodey just accepts okay this kid just…doesn’t stop until suddenly he Does and rhodey kind of wonders if he’s ever going to start up again; tony stark who evades and evades and evades talking about this with rhodey or pepper or anyone, tony stark who could afford the best treatment and help there is and just won’t go for it; tony stark who, whenever he does start talking about it, donates so much money (too much money?) to mental health charities and foundations because, yeah, it’s impulsive, and yeah, this might be a manic decision, but that doesn’t automatically make it a bad one.